8dpo and growing increasingly more nervous!

Today marks 8dpo for me. I am pretty sure I had a stronger O this month than last month since my temps seem to be quite a bit higher Post-O vs last months post-o temps. I am trying to not test until 10dpo, but we will see what tomorrow brings! LOL! I am growing increasingly nervous as the end of this cycle comes closer and closer. If I am not pregnant this cycle I will be taking an indefinite amount of time off at this point to focus on my weight loss journey. I resisted the urge to buy more Femara and keep trying, even though I am O-ing beautifully on it. I know this is what I need to do if I don't end up pregnant. I know it's still a step in the right direction as far as getting my body to ovulate, and I have worked so hard to get my body this far and I almost feel like I am just throwing it to the waste side, but I know I need to get healthier for myself and for future babies. It's a little bitter sweet since I will be working on myself and working on every aspect of my life. Trying to conceive takes a HUGE toll on you mentally, emotionally, and physically. I thank God that it has not effected my marriage as it does so many couples. I will keep you all updated :) 

Like I have said before if I go the weight loss route (which we should know in a few days) I will keep this blog open and make it my diet blog.

Thanks for reading and hope you are all doing well. 

EEEKKKK 3dpo!!!!

So today FF confirmed O by giving me CH and I am now 3dpo!!!!! Only about 7 more days until I decide to test! LOL! I am hoping to hold out at least until 10dpo, but we all know how that goes ;) Hoping and praying this cycle is it for us! Our BDing schedule was MUCH better this cycle than last I must say...


Hope everyone is well ;) Will update again soon, hopefully with some GREAT news :) 

+ OPK's!!!!!!!!!!

Today is CD22 and I got TWO + OPK's at 2 different times today!!!!!!!!!! EEEKKK I am so happy! We have had VERY good BDing schedule too!!! I surely hope this is it for us ;) Just when I was ready to give up on this cycle since my nips hadn't (key word!) been sore and not too much cm until yesterday, today and 2 days prior...Certainly am feeling good now ;) 


Hope everyone is doing well!

RE Appointment was today!!!!!!!

Update on RE appt today...It went AMAZING!!! There were a few hiccups along the way the blood pressure cuff squeezed my arm off....my arm/hand LITERALLY was tingly for like 10 mins AFTER it was done bahahah! Then the dr was running about 45mins behind...I was a little frustrated but he TOTALLY made up for it because he was SO nice. So we went back to his office and discussed our options. I DID tell him about the Femara and he wasn't mad or anything!!! All he said was "wow you really know about your PCOS huh" I was like yup lmao! He even wants to set up some type of seminar for dr's to attend about PCOS and how to treat/help patients get pregnant since I guess I "reminded" him that dr's are so uninformed about it! He said make sure and call him in 2 weeks and remind him about it as well as give him an update. I told him that I was going to start a diet and we would like to wait until June 1st to start "trying" again (since that is when DH's insurance kicks in) but in the mean time I was not going to prevent it either, he was totally ok with that and said hopefully with this diet I won't even need him. He totally 100% approves of my diet since it's so similar to South Beach (which he HIGHLY recommends to his PCOS patients!). He said if by June (or sooner if I give up on the diet etc) then call and set up appt for baseline u/s on CD 3 (after using provera if needed) and then we will try 7.5-10mg of Femara monitored (using u/s and trigger) and if that fails we will try femara AND Gonal-F or Follistim (whichever is cheaper at the time) and go from there. He did say while weight loss "may" help it is not an answer for all of us. So he said basically either way whenever I am ready he is ready to start helping us!!! It was so great to meet such a caring dr!!!! Whew sorry that was so long LOL ♥ you all and thanks for the support!

Possible UTI Possible Kidney problems

So I went to the dr yesterday since I have been having some kidney pain as well as lower back pain along with frequent and darker colored urine...my immediate thought was well it's just a UTI. So I went in for a UA and the nurse tells me that there is no protein in my urine and there are no white blood cells (leukocytes) either (which is what would rule out UTI) BUT there is red blood cells and she said it was really concentrated, which is not good. They are going to send the urine in to be cultured and starting me on an antibiotic. They said it could be a possible that my kidneys are not filtering or working properly. I honestly hope it's just something like a kidney stone or something like that (since that is a possibility too). They don't want to do any further testing (besides the culture) until they see if the antibiotics get rid of the pain. So at this point I am pretty worried about it, but there is nothing I can do except take the meds and hope and pray for the best. I am not too thrilled with how my Dr. is handling this, but I also don't have any other options at this point :/ 


Other than that I am on CD14 today and still waiting to O. Nothing more really to update ;) Hope everyone is doing ok ;) 

Saying Goodbye never gets easier :-(

So last night around 11:15pm I had to say goodbye to my sis, bil, and nephew. I ended up crying the whole way home :-( ... I hope to see them again in June (they live across the country from me), which is my nephew's first birthday, but with how money is and everything else (possible IF appointments etc), I am not sure as to what the future is going to hold. Especially with an upcoming RE appt on Jan 9th. At this point I would LOVE to go out and see my nephew on his first birthday, but I also need to think of my husband and I and our family we are trying to start. Being that I will be a VERY high risk pregnancy when I get pregnant, I highly doubt my dr will even allow me to fly, which would be another reason why we would not be able to make it. I am trying to just take it one day at a time, but I am a planner. I have to plan things in advance. I just very much dislike being unsure of the future and what it holds. 


Other than that, not too much to report. I have had some of the normal ovary pain in the beginning of the cycle and have already had some EWCM, but the opk's are still negative. I am lowering my prednisone to 5mg on Monday, and weening off by CD14 (which is Wednesday). I am going to continue taking the baby aspirin every other day, hoping it might extend my LP even by a day would be nice. I am hoping for a sooner and stronger O this month which should also help with the LP defect problem. 


Hope you all had a safe and Happy New Years! :) Wishing you all the best for the 2012 year!