So this cycle of Femara hasn't been too bad so far. I am on the 4th dose (and CD8) I have had hot flashes (nothing I am not used to lol) and then ovary pain starting on CD6 (again nothing I am unused to). I am very anxious to see how this cycle turns out since I started taking the 10mg prednisone on CD4 and then the Femara and baby aspirin added to the prednisone on CD5. The baby aspirin is still every other day and the prednisone is every night. I will ween down to 5mg of the prednisone starting on CD12.
I must admit I am a little jealous right now. There are a TON of ladies that are getting their BFP's right now. I know my time is coming and that I need to be patient. I just hope this cycle is it. I know I have said that a lot, but it's hard to not hope wish and dream of holding your baby. Don't get me wrong I know these ladies have all struggled right along with me and I couldn't be happier for them (seriously I am so ecstatic for them), but I wish I could join them in their happiness and feel what they are/have felt. I feel like some women can look at their husbands and get pregnant, I truly wish it was that easy for all of us. I just don't understand why some of us have to struggle so much. Especially when some of those people take for granted what comes so easy for them and tend to "accidentally" rub it in your face. Like I said a million times over I know I need to be patient, but I wish it came easier. Last month was a HUGE step in the right direction, but there is a lot more work my body needs to do lol!
Until then I am enjoying what little time I have left to spend with my nephew before they leave to go home (3300 miles away). Absolutely love the little guy to pieces. He is an amazing little boy :)
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Had a wonderful Christmas!
Despite my best efforts to get a BFP this past cycle it obviously ended with an 11day LP which is no good. The good part to the whole situation is that I finally got my body to O though and that was a huge step in the right direction!
My Christmas was wonderful! Hubby and I spent the night at my parents with my sis, bil, and nephew on Christmas Eve. Spending time with this little guy is going by WAY too quick, although it is amazing to be able to see him. I love him more than words can express! We still have a couple more Christmases to go and hoping they are as good as the first one :)
After seeing my husband and how happy he was to see the little guy, and how great he was with him, it has made my head spin and change my thoughts as to what my next step is. I still have an appt Jan 9th with my RE, so we will see what he suggests at the time as well. I went back and forth for a little bit as to what to do in the meantime. I had two options either take the last of my femara (7.5mg for CD5-9) with the prednisone and baby aspirin again and hope and pray for the best, or start this diet that I have really been wanting to get going, but I can not do both things at once. So I have decided after much deliberation to go ahead with the Femara and try to eat lower carb and low sugar for this month and see what happens.
am hoping and praying this month is it for us. We have been through so much, I just hope this is it. I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas as well, and hope for a ton of 2012 BFP's and babies ;)
My Christmas was wonderful! Hubby and I spent the night at my parents with my sis, bil, and nephew on Christmas Eve. Spending time with this little guy is going by WAY too quick, although it is amazing to be able to see him. I love him more than words can express! We still have a couple more Christmases to go and hoping they are as good as the first one :)
After seeing my husband and how happy he was to see the little guy, and how great he was with him, it has made my head spin and change my thoughts as to what my next step is. I still have an appt Jan 9th with my RE, so we will see what he suggests at the time as well. I went back and forth for a little bit as to what to do in the meantime. I had two options either take the last of my femara (7.5mg for CD5-9) with the prednisone and baby aspirin again and hope and pray for the best, or start this diet that I have really been wanting to get going, but I can not do both things at once. So I have decided after much deliberation to go ahead with the Femara and try to eat lower carb and low sugar for this month and see what happens.
am hoping and praying this month is it for us. We have been through so much, I just hope this is it. I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas as well, and hope for a ton of 2012 BFP's and babies ;)
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Looking like it's going to be bitter-sweet
So I haven't updated since there really hasn't been anything to update.
I have been under a ton of stress thanks to my noisy neighbors upstairs waking my husband and I up every morning at 7-8am when we don't go to bed until around 2am (since hubby works 2nd shift). Hoping and praying things calm down with them soon or April 1st is going to take FOREVER to get here LOL!
It's looking more and more like I am going to be starting my diet starting January 1st than anything at this point. I am 11dpo and I started spotting tonight after some serious cramping last night, that made me double over in pain (so severe I needed to take meds), and my emotions have been all over the place today. I thought it was just going to feel bitter sweet starting AF (since she has not started on her own in almost 4 years, and I FINALLY O-ed with ordered Femara, prednisone and baby aspirin) BUT to be honest it stings a LOT worse then I though imaginable since I am only 11dpo...that is NOT a good LP at all....now I have one more thing that I now need to figure out when I go to the RE....the Icing on the cake was really the LP defect that I have never had a problem with before....I just wish my body would work like it's supposed to.
The pain hurts so much to think that I can not do something so easy for some. Stings even more from the ones who take it for granted. I feel so bad for my husband for having to deal with me and all these problems, especially not being easily able to give him a child like I should be able to. I have really married a wonderful man. I know some that would run. I honest to God do NOT wish this pain of infertility and m/c's upon my WORST enemy.
I do not know if I will update this again before I start my diet, probably not, unless something drastically changes.
Please don't take for granted what comes easily for you, because in the blink of an eye everything could change and your whole world could come crashing down right around you and the ground beneath your feet could crumble into pieces right before your own eyes.
Sorry this blog isn't totally peaches n cream, but this is the truth and the reality and the true feelings behind the ugly face of infertility.
I have been under a ton of stress thanks to my noisy neighbors upstairs waking my husband and I up every morning at 7-8am when we don't go to bed until around 2am (since hubby works 2nd shift). Hoping and praying things calm down with them soon or April 1st is going to take FOREVER to get here LOL!
It's looking more and more like I am going to be starting my diet starting January 1st than anything at this point. I am 11dpo and I started spotting tonight after some serious cramping last night, that made me double over in pain (so severe I needed to take meds), and my emotions have been all over the place today. I thought it was just going to feel bitter sweet starting AF (since she has not started on her own in almost 4 years, and I FINALLY O-ed with ordered Femara, prednisone and baby aspirin) BUT to be honest it stings a LOT worse then I though imaginable since I am only 11dpo...that is NOT a good LP at all....now I have one more thing that I now need to figure out when I go to the RE....the Icing on the cake was really the LP defect that I have never had a problem with before....I just wish my body would work like it's supposed to.
The pain hurts so much to think that I can not do something so easy for some. Stings even more from the ones who take it for granted. I feel so bad for my husband for having to deal with me and all these problems, especially not being easily able to give him a child like I should be able to. I have really married a wonderful man. I know some that would run. I honest to God do NOT wish this pain of infertility and m/c's upon my WORST enemy.
I do not know if I will update this again before I start my diet, probably not, unless something drastically changes.
Please don't take for granted what comes easily for you, because in the blink of an eye everything could change and your whole world could come crashing down right around you and the ground beneath your feet could crumble into pieces right before your own eyes.
Sorry this blog isn't totally peaches n cream, but this is the truth and the reality and the true feelings behind the ugly face of infertility.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Either VERY Merry Christmas or Bitter Sweet One.......
The title pretty much speaks for itself, according to my BBT I am now 4dpo and should start on Christmas eve if I am not pregnant (14dpo)...So that means that yes FF did move my CH's from 9dpo to 4dpo.....Oh well at least I O'd....As much as it is going to sting if I am not pregnant, I am very excited to get on my diet (permanent life style change) to try and lose some weight, which I have struggled with my entire life....so it will be a bitter sweet reunion if I start AF (as I have not O'd in 3yrs. since I got pregnant only later to m/c).
I do have a plan of action for the following months if I do not get pregnant this month, which is starting my Ideal. Protein diet. I have finally received all of my products (as of today). I will more than likely wait to start the Ideal Protein diet until Jan 1st after the holidays, since I am going to be so close to the end of the month anyways, we will see how it all goes though.
I am so excited to see my sis, BIL, and nephew in ten days!!!!!!!!! It has been way too long (since beginning of August)...and while Skype. is an amazing invention and I am VERY fortunate to get to see him a lot over it, it's just not the same as being able to see him in person and hold him :-/ I am fortunate that he does seem to recognize my voice as well when we get on there to talk, which I must admit is an amazing feeling....I always call his name when we get on and say "what are you doing baby boy" or "are you going to talk to me tonight" and his little face just lights up and he smiles, which is awesome :)
That is all for now ;) Also, if I don't get pregnant and I start my diet I will just use this same blog to update my weight loss progress :) Hope everyone is doing well.
I do have a plan of action for the following months if I do not get pregnant this month, which is starting my Ideal. Protein diet. I have finally received all of my products (as of today). I will more than likely wait to start the Ideal Protein diet until Jan 1st after the holidays, since I am going to be so close to the end of the month anyways, we will see how it all goes though.
I am so excited to see my sis, BIL, and nephew in ten days!!!!!!!!! It has been way too long (since beginning of August)...and while Skype. is an amazing invention and I am VERY fortunate to get to see him a lot over it, it's just not the same as being able to see him in person and hold him :-/ I am fortunate that he does seem to recognize my voice as well when we get on there to talk, which I must admit is an amazing feeling....I always call his name when we get on and say "what are you doing baby boy" or "are you going to talk to me tonight" and his little face just lights up and he smiles, which is awesome :)
That is all for now ;) Also, if I don't get pregnant and I start my diet I will just use this same blog to update my weight loss progress :) Hope everyone is doing well.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Update
So I am now CD 27 and I "should" be 7dpo...BUT my temp has gone up really high the last 2 days....So when it looks like I O'd FF will be moving my CH's to CD 25 the day before the spike...so now I am only 2dpo and tomorrow when they move them it's going to be 3dpo instead of 8dpo LOL! Honestly I am just happy it looks like for sure that I O'd. Now the debate is whether to start my prometrium or ride it out....Some of the ladies on my board said it's very possibly a implant spike, but I am not 100% sure...I guess the only way to tell is going to be here over the next few days.
Hubby and I met some amazing people over the weekend for dinner. It was a blast and I am truly grateful to know these ladies and to meet them in person was just an added bonus!
Other than that, nothing much to report. Hope everyone is doing well :)
Hubby and I met some amazing people over the weekend for dinner. It was a blast and I am truly grateful to know these ladies and to meet them in person was just an added bonus!
Other than that, nothing much to report. Hope everyone is doing well :)
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Good news!
So today is a very good day so far. I am CD 25 AND I am 5dpo!!!!! I am also getting to meet a couple of my fellow "cysters" tonight for dinner!!!!!! Super stoked! I had been playing around with my temps a little and took out a couple temps that I was unsure over and it had given me the CH's, well today I just decided to put them back in to see what happens and I STILL get my CH's on the same day!!!!!!!! So needless to say I am not starting that diet right now, since it would not be enough to support a baby on if I get pregnant this cycle! My chart is actually looking pretty good right now! I am not trying to get my hopes up too high, but I am definitely excited! This would just be the icing on the cake if I get pregnant right before Christmas! Having my family home for Christmas (nephew, Sis and BIL) and then a BFP, would be an amazing dream come true!!!
Hope everyone is doing well!!! I will keep you all updated!
Hope everyone is doing well!!! I will keep you all updated!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Change in plans
So there has been a HUGE change in plans since I last updated...
First my initial consultation for my Fertility dr was supposed to be Dec 2nd (tomorrow), and I get a call yesterday saying that he was going to be out of the office, then on vacation the last two weeks in Dec. AND completely booked next week...My initial response was to bawl my eyes out....but I couldn't do that for one I was driving and for two I had to remind myself that there is another plan in progress...
Second....my "new plan" is to continue ttc through this cycle (not letting it go to waste on purpose, not knowing if it's going to work or not), and also have ordered everything I need to get started on the "Ideal. Protein. Diet"....I am not going through a Dr or Chiropractic office like some do, but I am doing it through 3fatchicks(dot)com and also through 100% alternative products. In the midst of waiting for the products to arrive (still waiting, just ordered..should be here by Dec 9th or so), I had some pretty intense ovary pain in both ovaries and I just dismissed it as gas or GI problems from my metformin...well low and behold my temp has been on the lower end the last couple days and today I got a LOT of EWCM.....I am definitely NOT holding my breath here, but hoping that I get a miracle BFP before I have to go to the Fertility Dr's at all! A Christmas BFP would be ALL I want for Christmas....I seriously wouldn't want anything else (with the exception of a safe flight and a great time with my sis, BIL, and nephew when they are here ;) ) .....Either way I am at total peace this cycle, with however it turns out....If my temps start to sky rocket (looking like ovulation then I will hold off on starting my diet until BFN or obviously wouldn't start it if I get a BFP)...Hope you are all doing well ;)
First my initial consultation for my Fertility dr was supposed to be Dec 2nd (tomorrow), and I get a call yesterday saying that he was going to be out of the office, then on vacation the last two weeks in Dec. AND completely booked next week...My initial response was to bawl my eyes out....but I couldn't do that for one I was driving and for two I had to remind myself that there is another plan in progress...
Second....my "new plan" is to continue ttc through this cycle (not letting it go to waste on purpose, not knowing if it's going to work or not), and also have ordered everything I need to get started on the "Ideal. Protein. Diet"....I am not going through a Dr or Chiropractic office like some do, but I am doing it through 3fatchicks(dot)com and also through 100% alternative products. In the midst of waiting for the products to arrive (still waiting, just ordered..should be here by Dec 9th or so), I had some pretty intense ovary pain in both ovaries and I just dismissed it as gas or GI problems from my metformin...well low and behold my temp has been on the lower end the last couple days and today I got a LOT of EWCM.....I am definitely NOT holding my breath here, but hoping that I get a miracle BFP before I have to go to the Fertility Dr's at all! A Christmas BFP would be ALL I want for Christmas....I seriously wouldn't want anything else (with the exception of a safe flight and a great time with my sis, BIL, and nephew when they are here ;) ) .....Either way I am at total peace this cycle, with however it turns out....If my temps start to sky rocket (looking like ovulation then I will hold off on starting my diet until BFN or obviously wouldn't start it if I get a BFP)...Hope you are all doing well ;)
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