CD11

Hello to everyone who is following along. I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! Sorry I haven't updated recently, just busy with Thanksgiving and Black Friday and not too much to report. 


My temps have been strangely high so far this cycle, so I have no idea what that is about. I thankfully have not had any side effects this cycle with the Femara, I had very very mild bone pain one day and then hot flashes and that was it! I am super grateful for that! 


I am getting increasingly nervous and excited about my appointment Friday with the Fertility Specialists. I know these doctors are amazing, I just hope we can come up with some money to be able to see them. Hubby starts his new job on next Wednesday, but we can't get insurance for 6 months! Ouch....I am super thankful for this new job and the fact that we will be getting insurance, but yet again we are stuck in the waiting game! Urgh! Again I know that I need to be patient, but I feel time slowly slipping away with every day that fades away.  


Until next time, everyone stay safe and much love to my ladies following! 

CD6 Day 4 of 5 of Femara

Hi ladies! Just a quick update, not too much to report here other than I am on CD6 and day 4 of the 5 days of Femara and I am HAPPY to report that I have not had as many symptoms (knock on wood) this cycle as I did last cycle. I have had very minor hot flashes at night (kinda hard to fall asleep, but I can deal), and then some mild bone pain. I woke up with a TERRIBLE pain in my left shoulder. It feels like I just slept on it wrong though, nothing I can't work through. 


Had a wonderful day today with hubby. We had a couples day today since he had most of the day off and went to a movie (first time in a long time) and I am so thankful there were literally like 7 other people in the whole theater! How awesome....and Breaking Dawn Pt1 is AMAZING!!!!! I loved every second of it! 


As the holidays are quickly approaching I am reminded more and more of the pain. This year is going to be extremely rough as it is my 1st nephews 1st Christmas, and don't get me wrong I truly truly love my Nephew, sister and brother in law and they are absolutely the best parents a child could ask for, but this would be my daughter's third Christmas, and I am still sitting here with empty arms. I am not going to lie it is going to be extremely rough, but I am going to do what I need to so that my emotions do not ruin his first Christmas or any one else's for that matter....I would NEVER intentionally ruin that for anyone. 


Also as the holidays approach more and more people announce they are pregnant and don't get me wrong, I am extremely happy for most of them (who care for their kids, are good parents, and truly deserve it), but the ones who constantly bitch, piss and moan about their children who continue to have more....put yourself in an infertile's shoes and see if you'd still complain. Don't get me wrong, we ALL have our days, but when you see it over and over and over from the SAME people it gets old REAL quick, and those always seem to be the people who get pregnant SO quickly and so easily. Those are the people that need to take a step back, re-evaluate their lives and be THANKFUL that they did NOT have to struggle to get the  2, 3, 4, 5 kids they are constantly complaining about. I am know that I will be a wonderful mom and this time waiting and praying for my baby will make me such a better, more thankful, caring mom then some of these women who pop kids out like rabbits! Don't get me wrong like I said MOST of my friends are REALLY wonderful mothers, but some I would just like to smack reality into them! 


I know that God is perfecting my little angel(s) in every way shape and form, and I need to be patient....WAY easier said then done. 

CD 3 First Day of Femara

So today is CD3 of my cycle and let me tell you it has been anything but nice to me this time around. I am ready to ship AF to someone else! LOL Anyways tonight I took my first dose of Femara and First dose of Prednisone...I also have decided that I am going to do vaginal temping vs oral because I think it is more accurate, even though the few days I took it before AF started I had two different thermometers and the difference in temps was so minimal I was shocked....but I am hoping it will work better and show better results this cycle ;)  .......I really hope and pray that this works....Nothing more to report right now. I will keep you all posted :) 


PS what are your plans for Thanksgiving?! Hope you have a happy and safe holiday!

NEW Cycle!!!!!!!

I am so please to say that AF has started exactly 5 days after my last provera pill!!!! That is wonderful news, and I am so pleased to get this new cycle going! I knew this cycle was going to start off really rough since my back has been REALLY sore the last few days and unfortunately keeps getting worse...by far one of the worst s/e from inducing AF with provera is the pain that comes from it....but is it worth it?! HECK YES it is!!! 


I have decided for sure to start the Femara on CD3-7, 7.5mg's, going to add 10mg of prednisone every night CD3-O and then a baby aspirin every other day from CD5-O. Hopefully this is my magical combo! 


I still have an appt to go to my Fertility Dr.on Dec 2nd and I am going to keep that appt.and see what the Dr. has to say. 


I am extremely happy that everything is going very well right now and I feel very blessed that things are going in a positive direction!  I even got to Skype with my baby nephew and sister last night which was really great, since he lives across country, which makes it really hard, not being able to see the little guy. :-/ I am very thankful for technology though, as it has helped us be able to keep in touch and I get to see the little guy as much as possible! On that note they will also be here in 1 month and 8 days! I can't wait!!!!! 

Good Day!

So today we got the news we have been waiting on and that is that my husband got the full time job he has been trying to get!!!!!!! He has to go to his physical and everything on Wednesday, and sign all paper work by the day before Thanksgiving....I know exactly what I am thankful for this year, and that is this job! It not only is full time, more hours, insurance, and better pay! Who could ask for more! I am not too sure how good the insurance is, but even crappy insurance is better than none! :) 


As for my cycle my temps are still elevated and we are waiting for AF to start. I am on 3 days past my last pill right now, so I should see AF here soon, I would say within the next 4 days. :) I have decided to take the Femara again CD3-7 of my cycle and starting the prednisone from CD3-ovulation, and then wean off from there. I am very excited to start this new cycle and get on with it ;) 

Last day of provera!

So today was my last day of provera, so now I am anxiously awaiting on AF's arrival. There are some that think I O'd prior to taking the provera, but I am not too sure. The only way to find out is to just wait it out. I don't think my temp rise was from O-ing I think it was from the provera, even though provera doesn't normally raise my temperature that much. Oh well. 


In better news I went to my Fertility Seminar last night (Nov 10th) and it was great! A lot of the information they went over I already knew, and there were quite a few couples there. Most were younger couples (our age), but there were 2 or 3 couples that were older (mid-late 30's). It honestly makes me feel so much better than I am not alone in this battle with infertility. I am all set up with the initial consult for Dec. 2nd, I am hoping that I will be pregnant by then and not need to go through with the procedures and everything, but if not then it's great that I am all set up to go :-). I could have gotten in sooner, but I decided that I need to be patient and wait for the "best doctor" (from what I have heard from a few people). I am very excited at this opportunity to get into a fertility doctor that is actually "fluffy friendly". I am still going to stick to the plan that I have for now, which is taking femara 7.5mg with 10mg of prednisone to try and lower my testosterone and DHEA's enough to maybe ovulate, since this last cycle was a bust. 


Hope everyone is doing well. Thanks for following along. 

Waiting again...

So I took the leap and decided to start provera, since I am CD 40 something and I decided that I needed to start taking provera to induce AF, since I still have not ovulated. So here I am again in the waiting game. Not too much else to report here. 


I have been doing the thankful for November on FB and let me tell you it really does feel good to be positive, when nothing else seems to be going in the right direction. 


Next course of action: Once AF starts I am going to lower the dose of Femara (7.5mg) CD 3-7 or CD2-6 (haven't quite decided) and take prednisone to lower DHEA's and testosterone, and hope for the best :) 


Hope everyone is well :) 

Thankful for November

So I have decided to take the challenge on FB to post something that I am Thankful for every day in November. I am not going to lie, being positive all the time is not something that I am used to so it is kind of difficult, but I am definitely making an honest effort! 


There has not been too much going on around here to update, but there are a possible change in plans happening LOL :). I went to a new OB/GYN on Nov 3rd and she was absolutely wonderful! She was VERY thorough, compassionate and caring (not something I am used to with dr's!). She let me know that when I do get pregnant I will be monitored VERY closely since I am a "VERY High risk pregnancy" considering my loss (which wasn't related to weight or PCOS...it was chromosomal), and the fact I have pcos, and of course my weight. I am very happy with my new dr. 


So I am facing a dilemma right now, I can either start my provera on Sunday, take it for 5 days, wait for AF and CONTINUE to try and lose some weight, or wait it out. It's all very confusing for me so I have reached out to my fellow cysters to get their opinions :) I will keep you posted on my decision. 


Have a GREAT weekend :)

It Could Be Worse.....

So I haven't posted in a few days, because I am trying to get my head straight and everything figured out. The stress has been unbearable, and the harder I tried to de-stress, more stress came. 


I had some really horrible news over the weekend that threw a wrench in my entire plan...the whole plan just took a nose dive. I asked myself several times could it get any worse? Absolutely. I have done a lot of deep soul searching and trying to figure out why me?! What have I done.....The same old thing I seem to do when I get depressed like this. I also immediately started questioning God, why does the bad keep happening to me? Do I feel like just throwing in the towel and laying down to let whatever happen happen? Absolutely, but I know that is not my answer. I have already thrown away 2.5 years, that I could have worked all this weight off, but I just didn't do it. Why? I have no clue, no motivation, no desire, no drive...those are all possible answers, and you may be sitting there asking yourself well isn't a baby enough motivation to lose weight and get healthy? It should be, and in some cases, for some women it is, but for me that is not how my brain works, I have no clue why. 


I have an appointment to see a new OB/GYN on Nov 3rd (which is this Thursday) and I am extremely nervous about seeing a new dr, as I never like to hear what they have to say (who does LOL). I know that at this point I am really going to try and start losing some weight. I have no other options at this point, and I really would like to be healthier going into a pregnancy. I have joined a free site that tracks calories and is awesome so far! It's called myfitnesspal(dot)com. It not only tells you how many calories you should be eating, but breaks it all down for you :)  


I finally prayed to God and asked him for help. I asked God to carry me, because right now in my life I can't do it on my own anymore and that I needed help and I put it all in His hands. Immediately when I asked for help, my heart felt lighter, I almost didn't believe it myself. I know I have to let go and let God, but why is it so hard? I am very thankful for my husband and the friends and family who HAVE helped us thus far and will continue to support us in this journey. I have to keep reminding myself, "It Could Be Worse".


Thank you all for reading and have a wonderful day :)